The Empty Womb

Well the long awaited time is reached its final week, Chris will be leaving on August 7th and we wont see him again until his graduation from boot camp. If all goes well that will be in November. He begins his journey into one of his first paths of his adult life and I know that in many ways this boy that I have seen grow into a young man will be a different man when he returns, but no matter what changes he may take on he will always be my son whom I love and respect and am truly proud of. It will be very hard and emotional for me to see him leave. I can’t begin to imagine what Maria is going through at this time. As a man I cant begin to understand the emotional and physical connection that a mother has with her children from the moment that life begins in her womb life takes on a whole new meaning something that as a man I will never get to experience yet alone understand. From that moment on everything begins to change and when I look back and see the changes that begin to take place it is truly amazing I look back and remember the many things and changes that seemed a bit odd at the time but now somewhat make sense, like how much she hated pizza and how Chris loves it! How the smell of anything spicy just made her sick and Chris cant get enough of the spicy foods, She loved tomatoes and Chris can’t stand them. There are so many things that you never put stock into and as time goes on you begin to see your children grow up and develop and you can see why the connection between a mother and her child is truly amazing from that first moment in her womb she was not only caring for another life but unknowingly taking part in the development of that life she was already living it, The likes and dislikes that would become evident later in life. She cared for him in her womb for nine month and even though she knew him already she would meet him for the first time! Can you imagine knowing someone only to meet them for the first time? Nineteen years later she finds herself once again in a similar experience just as he left her womb empty nineteen years ago so that she could meet him for the first time, he will leave her arms empty, It will be much like the first time she knows him and has cared for him and she knows that when she see’s him again it will be like meeting him for the first time again. So I can only imagine what she will be going through I witnessed how painful it was for her when she met him for the first time and know I will witness how painful it will be to say goodbye for the first time.



1 Corinthians 13

1 Suppose I speak in the languages of human beings and of angels. If I don't have love, I am only a loud gong or a noisy cymbal. 2 Suppose I have the gift of prophecy. Suppose I can understand all the secret things of God and know everything about him. And suppose I have enough faith to move mountains. If I don't have love, I am nothing at all. 3 Suppose I give everything I have to poor people. And suppose I give my body to be burned. If I don't have love, I get nothing at all.

4 Love is patient. Love is kind. It does not want what belongs to others. It does not brag. It is not proud. 5 It is not rude. It does not look out for its own interests. It does not easily become angry. It does not keep track of other people's wrongs.

6 Love is not happy with evil. But it is full of joy when the truth is spoken. 7 It always protects. It always trusts. It always hopes. It never gives up.

8 Love never fails. But prophecy will pass away. Speaking in languages that had not been known before will end. And knowledge will pass away.

9 What we know now is not complete. What we prophesy now is not perfect. 10 But when what is perfect comes, the things that are not perfect will pass away.

11 When I was a child, I talked like a child. I thought like a child. I had the understanding of a child. When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me.

12 Now we see only a dim likeness of things. It is as if we were seeing them in a mirror. But someday we will see clearly. We will see face to face. What I know now is not complete. But someday I will know completely, just as God knows me completely.

13 The three most important things to have are faith, hope and love. But the greatest of them is love.

Thursday, November 13, 2008

Borrowed Time!

The only true guarantee in this world is that one-day we will die! I know it may sound harsh and crude, but why sugar coat the one thing we have no say or control over, after all it is single handedly the one thing that we all have in common, it is our inheritance regardless of age, gender, race, culture, financial position and even our beliefs. Nutrition and fitness are essential for a healthy lifestyle but even that wont stop the inevitable. Here in the last couple of months I have been reminded about the important thing that we take for granted daily, Back in September one of the families that works for me had two of their loved ones hospitalized, their brother in-law Larry was admitted for pancreatitis and shortly after their father Francisco had back to back Strokes, since then their brother in-law has been released from the hospital and is doing better and recovering their father however still remains hospitalized and he’s recovery will be a very slow and long one. With all that this family has gone through in such a short time I cant even begin to imagine how they must feel. In October I got a email from Diane she is the account manager for one of the facilities that I service she had emailed me to tell me about Verlen another friend that works for them he was diagnosed with cancer and he was going to undergo chemo therapy, I stopped by and visited with him a week after he had his first chemo treatment and it brought back memories, for anyone that has been through chemo or has had a loved go through it know the horrific affects that the body takes not to mention how it demoralizes you. And this month just a few days back last Thursday night to be exact our next door neighbor Justin was struck by a vehicle as he was walking back home from the store just around fifty feet from his house and right in front of ours he died from internal complications at the hospital that night, the pain this family has been through in the last three years is unbelievable Justin is the third family member to pass away around the same time this year. These past month have been rather sobering to say the least. Why do we hide the joy of life if only to understand that we may never get another chance, what I mean is we often here that coined phrase live today like it’s your last so why don’t we? We are not immortal we will never be! Not in this flesh anyway. If we knew today would be our last what changes would we make about the way we live our life? Why should we have to wait for someone that we love to become hospitalized or diagnosed with a deadly disease or even death before we come to them and say how much they mean to us or even show them our love and compassion in a perfect world we would wake up every day thanking god for the opportunity to make a difference in someone’s life, but not in this life we always think of what we don’t have and who we don’t like until that moment when we no longer have the chance to make amends.


Today I lost my breath you called my name I did not hear, your tears poured down like heavens rain I could not wipe them all away, no sun insight the time ran out it was not planed like this, tomorrow is here only the memories remain what will your life be like? make it count before you sleep, now you lay me down to rest I pray the lord your soul to bless for I am gone but you must stay, live today hold no regrets in everything until it’s time to pay the debt, don’t waste a tear but live and laugh someday will reunite…
By Felipe

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