The Empty Womb

Well the long awaited time is reached its final week, Chris will be leaving on August 7th and we wont see him again until his graduation from boot camp. If all goes well that will be in November. He begins his journey into one of his first paths of his adult life and I know that in many ways this boy that I have seen grow into a young man will be a different man when he returns, but no matter what changes he may take on he will always be my son whom I love and respect and am truly proud of. It will be very hard and emotional for me to see him leave. I can’t begin to imagine what Maria is going through at this time. As a man I cant begin to understand the emotional and physical connection that a mother has with her children from the moment that life begins in her womb life takes on a whole new meaning something that as a man I will never get to experience yet alone understand. From that moment on everything begins to change and when I look back and see the changes that begin to take place it is truly amazing I look back and remember the many things and changes that seemed a bit odd at the time but now somewhat make sense, like how much she hated pizza and how Chris loves it! How the smell of anything spicy just made her sick and Chris cant get enough of the spicy foods, She loved tomatoes and Chris can’t stand them. There are so many things that you never put stock into and as time goes on you begin to see your children grow up and develop and you can see why the connection between a mother and her child is truly amazing from that first moment in her womb she was not only caring for another life but unknowingly taking part in the development of that life she was already living it, The likes and dislikes that would become evident later in life. She cared for him in her womb for nine month and even though she knew him already she would meet him for the first time! Can you imagine knowing someone only to meet them for the first time? Nineteen years later she finds herself once again in a similar experience just as he left her womb empty nineteen years ago so that she could meet him for the first time, he will leave her arms empty, It will be much like the first time she knows him and has cared for him and she knows that when she see’s him again it will be like meeting him for the first time again. So I can only imagine what she will be going through I witnessed how painful it was for her when she met him for the first time and know I will witness how painful it will be to say goodbye for the first time.



1 Corinthians 13

1 Suppose I speak in the languages of human beings and of angels. If I don't have love, I am only a loud gong or a noisy cymbal. 2 Suppose I have the gift of prophecy. Suppose I can understand all the secret things of God and know everything about him. And suppose I have enough faith to move mountains. If I don't have love, I am nothing at all. 3 Suppose I give everything I have to poor people. And suppose I give my body to be burned. If I don't have love, I get nothing at all.

4 Love is patient. Love is kind. It does not want what belongs to others. It does not brag. It is not proud. 5 It is not rude. It does not look out for its own interests. It does not easily become angry. It does not keep track of other people's wrongs.

6 Love is not happy with evil. But it is full of joy when the truth is spoken. 7 It always protects. It always trusts. It always hopes. It never gives up.

8 Love never fails. But prophecy will pass away. Speaking in languages that had not been known before will end. And knowledge will pass away.

9 What we know now is not complete. What we prophesy now is not perfect. 10 But when what is perfect comes, the things that are not perfect will pass away.

11 When I was a child, I talked like a child. I thought like a child. I had the understanding of a child. When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me.

12 Now we see only a dim likeness of things. It is as if we were seeing them in a mirror. But someday we will see clearly. We will see face to face. What I know now is not complete. But someday I will know completely, just as God knows me completely.

13 The three most important things to have are faith, hope and love. But the greatest of them is love.

Friday, March 27, 2009

Ok this will blow you all away!

Maria Got these pictures from her sister Mona from Lamar Colorado Today!!! And It's still snowing!!!!!!








Maria got these pictures from her sister Jennie from Walnut Springs Texas Today Ahhhhhh, Spring in Texas and love is in the air!




Thursday, March 26, 2009

Kaitlyn's School Picture

Monday, March 23, 2009

Kings - Goliath, Parts 1 and 2


Grease 2 (1982)



St. Elmo's Fire (1985)


<a href="http://www.joost.com/072mvze/t/St-Elmo-s-Fire">St. Elmo's Fire</a>

Paramore - Decode

if you have not yet seen the movie twilight it has become another personal favorite for me, so if you get a chance i highly recommend it! i really enjoyed it.

Sunday, March 22, 2009

Lael in his RR Clothes


Finally Lael Pics.

Welcome Back Home









Lael and Alicia



Winter happy to see her little brother home

Lael's Back Home in San Diego.

Praise and Glory to God that lael is back he completed his first tour in Iraq and made it back safe and in good health, he arrived from Iraq on Thursday about 8:00pm i don't have any recent pictures yet only one from before he left Iraq.

Spring Break at Fun on the run paintbal park.

Who Shot Zoe

Spring Break Paintballers (Part 1)

Spring Break Paintballers (Part 2)

Misc Pics.







It's Been A While.

Well it's been about a month since I posted anything on here, Keeping busy with work and family activities.

Kaitlyn has been very active in school she has joined drama class, tried out for the cheerleader squad, joined the rock club and basketball team at her school it has been a busy but fun year for her at school and it's only mid March.

Chris is out of the air-soft gun phase but has quickly joined the Paintball one, after investing hundreds of dollars in his air-soft collection he has now began his collection of paintball guns, we have visited several stores and have been to the paintball park twice already it has been really fun I have really enjoyed the time with him. With his birthday coming up he is all excited to be getting his drivers license he already had his driving permit that restricted him to be with a full licensed driver 21 years of age.

Stephanie's life has had many changes in the last few months the most significant one was giving autumn’s dad Angel another opportunity to be the man she feels he can be. He got a one bedroom apartment in a nice area and Stephanie, Angel and Autumn are making a go at a new start, they are always in my prayers and I ask God to bless them, it's not going to be easy and I should know a thing or two about hardship and second chances we all deserve to be happy even if it's on the second or third time around. She also has been showing interest in going back to college as for now she is working with me part-time and what can I say about my beautiful baby granddaughter Autumn a true blessing and I just love her and miss her so when she is not around, I enjoy looking at her how excited she get's when her mom gets back from work that look in her face when she see's Stephanie, all smiles and laughter for her mommy.

Mercedes loves school and being with her friends she especially loved it when we went to the Ranch at my brother-in-law Manuel's she had a blast riding the four wheelers and since then has kept asking me when am I going to buy here a four wheeler. She loves to sing on the karaoke on the Xbox 360 and she is very competitive she does not like to lose not one bit.

Maria has been busier than ever she is always doing one thing or another or cleaning something or taking the kids somewhere or doing favors for others, were she gets all that energy and then she still has to put up with me.

I am truly blessed God is good his mercy and grace is poured out to us.